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| 10:17pm 08/06/2004 |
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why is it that when i need someone to talk to no one is around but when i wanna be left alone every one is around?
anyways...im dyeing me hair on friday! my mom had me call my dad and tell him to make sure he didnt need me to go to any fancy things this summer where pink hair would be a bad thing to have. well i told him and he goes to me "if you wanna live here you wont be dying your hair. you may be able to dye your hair at your mothers, but if you dye your hair pink you will not be living here!" then he hung up. nice to kno my dad cares. as long as i can remember my father has been telling me to make my own choices and be myself, and he has been begging me to move in with him. well when i do make my own choice and try to do something i want he tels me that if i do he never wants to see me again. as long as my hair is pink then he will not talk to me. when i called him i was in my moms room with her and after i hung up i walked out crying cuz he was a jerk and hung up after yelling at me and didnt even say good bye. so i walk off crying and i go into my room and turn on simple plan "perfect" while im in my room my mom calls him back and tells him taht its better than me screwwing random guys or peircing body parts taht shouldnt be peirced and he hung up on her after telling her taht he would prefer that i peirce myself. so im gonna get disowned by my own father cuz my grandparents wont like me with pink hair. so now tomorrow i need to go and talk to him. im gonna ask brandon to go with me cuz i dont kno how upset i will be when i leave. im gonna go into my room grab the stuff i brought from my moms and then im going to give him back the key tell him that im sorry that i couldnt be everything he wanted in a daughter and leave. im not sure how im gonna tell him that im moving with mom is going to go over, but if it goes over anything like anything else im gonna need to be able to run like hell. |
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| 09:45pm 07/05/2004 |
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i need to write in this more often. anyways. im bored. i dont have much to say. i have no one to talk to cuz of the stupid semi. me alley and crystal were gonna go out. but then they decided to go to semi with out telling me till i asked what was going on with today. brandon is at the semi with this really stupid girl, whome i cant stand. elsa has fallen off the face of this planet. and cain isnt talking. well i gtg later
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| 06:46pm 23/04/2004 |
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ok today my car got fixed it was fun. i got a new exhaust system, an o2 sensor, and my horn works, the interior light works. so tomorrow its getting an inspectoion sticker and i got myslef a sexy ass car! |
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| 04:01pm 22/04/2004 |
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wow i never update this thing. well i guess i should just say i hope every one had a memralble 420... not that u can remember most of it if ur a stoner lol later |
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| in reply to elsas nice long entry about her "friends" |
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| 06:32pm 28/03/2004 |
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denial is the first step and im past that one... i dont have a problem so i kno ur not talking about me when you say that a friend of yours has a problem and ur try'n to help her. ur not supporting me altho that part was about a guy and im not a guy so that cant be me. damn u must hate me lol. elsa i love you. ok enough of me acting stupid. im gonna go get baked now lol no jk lol ok later |
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| 02:25pm 15/02/2004 |
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today was a long and boring day. draged out by the inconsistancies of my moods. ive been really pissed since last night. brandon, who has become one of my best friends was trying to keep me laughing even tho what he knew was going on. he really has become very close to me. i enjoy his company and am very glad that nothing has ever happened between us. if it did i think that we wouldnt be friends the way we are to day. its like he is a brothre to me, he helps me out in every aspect of my life. he listens to my problems and just gives normal advice. me and him are hanging out on friday. thank god cuz i need to get my mond off all the shit in my life and he always helps me do that. |
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| 10:48pm 30/01/2004 |
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mood:  contemplative
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life sucks and then ya die right? well i must be about to die cuz right now my life really sucks. hmmm i wonder what i should do right now... but then again who cares. |
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| 03:33pm 18/01/2004 |
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mood:  hopeful
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its snowing. tomorrow i might go hang out with 2 of my friends, not sure yet tho. last night was the funniest night ever, i was talking to brandon and this kid matt, hes my friends cousin,he is the funniest kid i have ever talked to. he and elsa were iming me saying that he was my stalka who lives in forida, hmmm long didstance stalka. lol. anyways i knew that it was her, but he was so funny. hes only 13 but hes a cool kid. anyways, im at my dads house and have to go to my moms soon ugh. but i hopefuly will be hanging out with elsa and matt tomorrow. well, i must be going now. chow for now brown cow. |
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| 08:31pm 17/01/2004 |
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im so bored. im watching the good bye girl on tnt... not too bad but could be better. |
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| 10:10pm 07/01/2004 |
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well winterball was canceled which really pissed me off. i really wanted to go, only bad part dress but i would have suffered through that. anyways im not supposed to go to school tomorrow, cuz me mum is ganna have my little baby bro. hmmm... i have nothing to do this weekend. o well ill think of something. |
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| 09:06pm 06/01/2004 |
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well i got a livejournal. its about time... any ways hmmm i have no idea what to put for this first entry. |
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